Tera Rabe is my little sister. She recently wrote this devotion and it’s just too good not to share with you. I know you will enjoy.
This month marks 26 years since I accepted Christ. I can’t help but reflect on my journey with the Lord. We all look back and reminisce during lengths of friendship, marriage and employment. Why not stop and think about our journey with our Lord?
When I was fourteen, I had scoliosis surgery. I did not fear the surgery or the possibility of something going wrong. My trust was in the Lord.
In October 2001, my Mom got sick and needed constant care for a while. I left college during mid-semester of my junior year and moved back home. I knew God was calling me to do this. Looking back, I am so glad I obeyed.
Then, a year later, Mom passed away three days before Christmas and just three months after I was married. God carried me through that intense season of grief. It was during this time that I truly fell in Love with Christ. I felt such an emptiness in losing my Mom that He was the only one who could fill it. I was twenty five years old. I felt robbed. I still had so much of my life to live and she would not be there. My relationship with the Lord was never meant to be an after-thought and that’s exactly what it was until that moment I let him become my everything. That was fifteen years after I had decided to follow him.
There seems to be a common thread with those who allow Christ to be their everything. The reality of it is not IF they get to that point, but WHEN. The when is usually followed by a life changing, life altering event. I have often wondered why that was.
Then, this past January, I was at an all Women’s Night of Worship at church. A woman got up, told her story and an at the end, passed out index cards and told us to write down our “take-away” for the evening. I sat there silently, feeling like I didn’t have anything to write and then all of a sudden, I found myself writing “GOD DEPENDENT.” Be more God Dependent! It’s about being God Dependent! It all made sense. I now understood a little bit of why I had to go through the painful grief process and it also set the tone for what was coming later this year.
This past summer, I had another surgery for scoliosis and I knew that the only way to get through it was to be 100% God Dependent. He was there, every step of the way. I am so thankful that He is mine and I am His. My prayer is that you allow him to be your everything.
“I lie awake thinking of you, meditating on you through the night. Because you are my helper, I sing for joy in the shadow of your wings. I cling to you; your strong right hand holds me securely.” Psalm 63:6-8 NLT